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Dizzying Intellect » damn it.

damn it.

Did I mention we do cancer in my family?

Yeah.

My cousin Mike’s decided to stop fighting his, and go home.

His brother Bert did that a few years ago. I don’t understand and it makes me so mad I could scream. And yet, I don’t know that I wouldn’t do the same myself. Mike had prostate cancer last year, and then had surgery for bladder cancer a few weeks ago, and they thought they got it all. But the scarring caused an obstruction. The doc thought it could be solved with a strict diet, but they ended up opening him up again and finding that the cancer was back, and had spread.

So he’s giving it up. He’s got four kids. One of his daughters just got married a few weeks ago.

With all of the crazy experimental treatments right now, that are getting some people five, ten, twenty years. He’s going home.

When I was a kid, he used to play Piano Man for me, on the piano, and sing.

I love him.

I’m so pissed that I don’t know what to punch.

And I think maybe I ought to fly out, after his stitches are healed again, and play a round of golf with him while I can.

GOD DAMN IT.

Update 8/12: Wow. Mike died last night. That was… man, his mom said she didn’t think he had long, but that was so fast. He just sent an email a few days ago. That was so, so fast.

4 Comments

  • By radix, August 5, 2009 @ 9:02 pm

    I’m so sorry… that really bites the big one.

    For heaven’s sake, go. Treasure the time you have. (I go every Christmas now and see my last grandparent, my maternal grandmother)

  • By marc, August 5, 2009 @ 11:18 pm

    My sister-in-law, someone who I spent so much time bitching about…but..too much me, the mother of 3…a daughter and twin boys, none older than 10. This cancer-fucker makes me only able to type incomplete sentences. Anyway, she is half-way through chemo which promises her at least a couple more years — and no less or more — with her kids.

    And, so, fuck, I wish I had something… All I can echo is “GOD DAMMIT!”

  • By Erica, August 6, 2009 @ 8:40 am

    :(

  • By mlah, August 7, 2009 @ 1:08 am

    my dad is battling t cell lymphoma at the moment. chemo is working, but killing his marrow.

    best of wishes t.

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